My goal for 2015 is to read more, study more and learn more. I picked up my NT Greek book from almost twenty years ago and started enjoying relearning the Greek alphabet, grammar rules and conjugations. At the beginning of the year I went up to YWAM Publishing with my parents. We got a tour of the building, including the offices and warehouse. And we learned about the history of the book series "Christian Heroes Now & Then". I bought a copy of Georg Müller's book. I finally had a chance to read it last week. Talk about a faith builder!
Brent has an interview today for a job that he has been dreaming of for quite some time. In preparing for this interview, I have been praying a lot. Praying for our circumstances, for Brent to study the right things, for confidence instead of insecurity, for favor with the interview panel, and so on. My prayer walks have been focusing on spiritual warfare and praying for God's direction. Part of me so wants to clearly hear from God that this IS the job that God has for Brent. Over the past week I have received so many different bible verses in my quiet time that have encouraged me and that have in some small way confirmed that we are heading in the right direction.
I have been feeling for a while that God wants to fulfill the desire of Brent's heart. In Psalms 21 David praises God, because "You have given him his heart's desire"! Then in James 4:2b says "You do not have because you do not ask". So I have been asking God - a lot! And during this process, I suddenly felt my faith building. In fact, the more discourage or insecure Brent got, the more my faith increased. And with increasing faith I started to thank God for what he was about to do, rather asking him to do it! The more I prayed and thanked God, the more confident I felt that this could really be God's will for our lives!
Well, Brent had the interview and it was in some way the opposite of what I expected. He came home totally discouraged and being one hundred precent certain that he was not getting this job. I am said for him, but the funny thing is, I still feel that he will get this job. Until he receives a phone call or email stating that he has not been accepted for the position, I will continue to believe that God can work against all odds and get Brent this job.
In fact, my first thought was, that if Brent gets the job now, it will really truly be a miracle. God wants to give Brent the desire of his heart, but the more unexpected it happens. the bigger of a gift it will be!
